I’m an expert, I say so …yeah right



This blog will be more of a pagan than a pagan warriorship post.


So recently some “odd” things occurred in a town in the far south of New Zealand. Invercargill to be exact. By odd, some packages of meat (and vegetables) were found in holes, in carparks, by a beach. These holes had flowers on top.


Yes strange. I will admit that.


However the media for some reason (and it is unclear why) went looking for a Pagan expert ™ to explain it. Because you know, that is how this works. Odd things, flowers, QED Pagans.


This expert, “Antonius Tenberge” (apparently a Pagan Alliance New Zealand elder) claimed that it was the work of Pagans. Perhaps, perhaps not. The context is not automatically Paganesque.

My bigger issue is “Antonius Tenberge” who is apparently also known as Gohdi Odinson, is supposed to be a founder of “the Pagan Aliance New Zealand”. Except this person means the Facebook group, not one of the man incarnations using that name.


So the lesson here, is that if you claim a title in pagandom, then you might be believed. We need to be better than this.


The term elder, is a title I despise within Paganism, it is used and abused. As many of you know, when I was living in Milwaukee, it was used as a weapon. A group of individuals, set up a feudal system. With a “king” (no I am not naming him) and various Barons (and Baronesses) who swore fealty (no I mean that literally) to him. They tried to make it such that, if they disapproved of you, or your group, you could not operate. I have many stories about this. But the upshot was, an “elder” (who’d been in the community for a very short time, and owned a store (that failed)) accused me of burglary (but nothing got stolen), trying to kidnap her dog, and my personal favourite. Taking a shot at her store (no bullet hole, no cartage, or witness ever saw this). Anyone who knows me knows I prefer dogs to humans, and I did not own a gun, being on a green card, and having no need for one. That elder, had a history of alcohol and narcotic abuse.


So yeah, “elder” is a term I dislike. In this case, someone seems to be setting themselves up as an expert. Something that worries me. If you listen to the story (its audio as well as text)… well yeah, the media personalities make fun of the idea of Paganism. Great job “Antonius”.


So what to take from this?


  • Don’t let random muppets claim a title. You earn it. Not just “forming a group” but hard work
  • If you are going to talk to the media. Vet what you are saying, vet how they will respond. Oh and don’t do it for the fame.


  • Be accurate in what you say.

Like I said, these might be pagan offerings. If they are. It is a sloppy, and lazy pagan offering.

How a warrior should act.

A few days back, I saw a news alert come onto the screen of my phone. A massacre occurred at a mosque. Hundreds dead.


That’s about all I will say about that. What I will talk about, is the mind set of so called warriors for a faith.


Humans like to think they are in the right when the do something, otherwise they tend to hide their involvement, when they know it is not right.


Lets get this clear. This is not an attack on Islam, or Muslims. I will remind readers that Christians have a long history of being fuckwits (yes I swore, get over it). The IRA and Orangemen made being anywhere in the UK Ireland, a dodgy prospect. When I first travelled to the UK, it was the mid 80’s and you tended to be wary of parked vehicles, and in Ireland the question of “Are you Catholic or Protestant” was a loaded one. Buddhists in Miramar are forcing Muslims to flee by the hundreds of thousand. Hindus too are not with out blame. Neopaganism has the spectre of white nationalists, in the form of the Volkish movement, which could too become an “event”.


It remains, humans are unpleasant creatures.


But I feel (I don’t know for every example, though I’ve spoken to members of certain religious groups who this does hold for), that “Warriors of Faith” feel they are doing their God(s) work. Many faiths want to “win” (whatever the hell that is?).
However, they don’t get, that this is not being a warrior, in the spiritual sense. Yes they are “Doing war unto the other guy” and all that jazz. But a Warrior who is spiritual, is more than a murderer, more than a thug, they are the protector, the voice of reason, and advocate of the Devil on occasion. A solider has the right to refuse an illegal order, similarly the Warrior has a duty not to kill innocents.


I’ve been at pagan gatherings, where there is always some “warrior” (who sadly almost always is some Volkish twit), who advocates “getting them before they get us”. Here is the thing. As a Pagan of … geeze 30 years?? Not once, have I been targeted in a meaningful way by the “Dreaded Xtian” (Christian) or any other faith, well except some other pagans (Yes I’ve had run ins with White nationalists, who identify as Volkish, I am sure not all Volkish heathens are this way, yet I’ve yet to meet one).


I fully advocate being prepared for defence of community. Though my community has shrunken since I decided to leave from ADF. I have trained for over a decade in Combatives. I am prepared for a natural disaster (most New Zealanders are, we live with earthquakes, and potentially Tsunami). I constantly assess the safety of what I am doing at work (its how I survive working in the scale up in Chemistry) which bleeds over, into assessing the safety of many otherthings.


You will never find me thinking “Hey those fuckers in the Church/Mosque/Temple/Coven down the road are a threat to my ego, lets go get them”.


When I was Chieftain of the ADF Warriors guild, we actually had a couple of individuals, who were advocating this sort of behavior. They were quickly told that that was unacceptable, but one of them was actually removed from ADF, because he threatened to put a Grovemate through a wood chipper, and feed it to that persons partner. Needless to say, he’s an idiot.


That is not the Warriors way.


What I have thought however is “Hmm those people are very much aggressively pushing their faith on others, and I’m not going to stand for that if they push it my way. Should I fight back if they do that or should I ere on the side of safety and stay hidden?”


THAT is the correct way to do things.

Bíonn an fhírinne searbh.



The Irish phrase Bíonn an fhírinne searbh means “The truth is bitter”. In many ways this is a perfect description of what the warrior does. The Warrior doing warrior things, is something most people are ambivalent to nervous about.


Recently, I decided to be honest (thus tell the truth) in an exit Survey to ADF. This has caused me no end of problems. I’ve been Sanctioned off of lists and FB groups. (despite as of this writing having 3 weeks membership left). To ADF my truth is bitter to them. Honesty to them was scathing, rather than a chance to change, and one-day lure me and other members back. In essence, my “disloyalty” is the problem, not the problems.


I expected this to be fair. ADF has never done well with criticism. The current leadership however are particularly bad with it, despite assurances they are moving to transparency. I would not be shocked if a scism or sectarian thing happens sooner than later.


This seems to be a very common reaction for people, and organizations (which are obviously groups of likeminded people) who do not actually wish to change. Sadly, sometimes you have to be honest, even though you know the reaction will not be positive. When you care about something or someone, but must walk away, I’ve found that honesty is healthier than “why, what did I do?”. I’ve been on the receiving end of people breaking contact and never saying why before.


SO the honest, open, and moral thing to do, is to be honest. Even if Bíonn an fhírinne searbh.